想起一個字可以表達最近的心情, 悶!
因為疫情的關係, 人與人之間的互動要多點距離, 口罩也成了必要的配備, 戴久了, 真的有點悶! 教會的每日靈修讀經進度落在約伯記, 有42章, 大約要一個半個月的日子. 約伯記要到38章, 上帝才從旋風中回答約伯, 我們已經知道約伯會遭遇這次苦難的原因了, 還要耐著性子看三個朋友和約伯三個回合的論戰, 等到各自說完話了, 還來一個年輕氣盛的以利戶, 一講，從32章講到37章. 也是悶啊! 但是, 拿掉3章到37章, 就不成約伯記了; 錯失了其中上帝所要教導我們的寶貴話語, 在某些真實的人生處境中, 缺少可以使力的著力點.
教會的講台信息是按著靈修經文的進度. 在預備主日講道時, 腦海中浮現一首詩歌 "當答案不夠時". 人世間原本就有許多苦難的習題難解, 或是根本無法解. 小到影響個人, 家庭; 大到影響一族, 一國, 全地, 就如這次的新冠肺炎疫情. 聖經傳道書3章1節: "凡事都有定期, 天下萬物都有定時." 上帝要我們在祂面前存敬畏的心, 我們相信主掌權, 但是, 或有一時看不透, 當答案不夠的時候, 我們仍有耶穌. 主與我們同在!
當答案不夠時--林南小詩班
當失望如一座大山在面前，你努力，你爭戰，而勝過，
但又出現一條冰冷的深谷，如一陰影無能力再勝過。
當你覺得一切苦難都在身上，你知許多經文能解困，
但這次心靈深處受到最大傷害，背誦經文似乎也沒有用處。
當答案不夠時，仍有耶穌，祂不只是單單回答你禱告，
祂能使你心平安，成為避難所，當答案不夠時，祂同在。
你想為何這事會臨到你，只知道要更加親近祂，
當痛苦慢慢的增加時，你就得到一機會，經過淚水你可得到勝利。
當答案不夠時，仍有耶穌，祂不只是單單回答你禱告，
祂能使你心平安，成為避難所，當答案不夠時，祂同在。
[ When answers aren't enough ]
You have faced the mountain of desperation,
you have climbed, you have fought, you have won.
But this valley that lies coldly before you
casts a shadow you cannot over come.
And just when you thought had it all together,
You knew every verse to get you through
But this time all the sorrow broke more than just your
heart,
and reciting all those verses just wont do.
When answers aren't enough, there is Jesus.
He is more than just an answer to your prayer.
And your heart will find a safe and peaceful refuge,
When answers aren't enough, He is there, He is there.
Instead of asking, "Why did it happen",
think of where it can lead you from him.
And as your pain is slowly easing,
you can find a greater reason to live your life
triumphant through the tears.
When answers aren't enough, there is Jesus.
He is more than just an answer to your prayer.
And your heart will find a safe and peaceful refuge,
When answers aren't enough, He is there, He is there.
